Sex Drunks

Pasha nearly loses it when his grand-sponsee pulls out Step Into Action instead of the Big Book—and has to pray his way out of saying something he'd regret. From there, the guys get into whether outside resources like Step Into Action are helpful or harmful, why "clear-cut directions" aren't always so clear, and what step one actually requires before anything else clicks. Jonathan drops that he used to mumble "I'm a sexaholic" under his breath without really meaning it, and Pasha lands on the most annoyingly honest realization: there might not be a wrong way to do this.

Jonathan and Pasha dive into codependency—what it actually is, why it's rooted in selfishness, and why it might be the next frontier for both of them. Jonathan shares a tense family conversation over the holidays that finally pushed him toward making his amends, and Pasha recounts one of his most complicated ninth step experiences that still catches him off guard years later.

Pasha opens up about a rough week battling new compulsions — including an endless scroll through a used clothing app — while Jonathan shares what it was like to go from feeling nothing to finally crying at a kids' Christmas movie. They dig into the stigma around medication in recovery, what depression actually feels like, and why the things you don't want to share are usually exactly what you need to say.

Jonathan admits he's been pushing his wife away by constantly criticizing her approach to recovery—and realizes he's living proof of what not to do. Pasha wrestles with a Russian big book study that challenges everything he thought he knew. Together they explore what it means to hold strong opinions loosely, and why "I don't know" might be the most honest thing a sexaholic can say.

Ned and Jeanette open up about navigating 25+ years of marriage through sex addiction recovery—from the "first year is awful, second year is worse" reality to learning that full disclosure might not mean what you think it does. They dig into the tricky dance of honesty without brutality, the spidey senses Essanons develop, and why one day at a time applies to staying married too.